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Syndie_in_Wonderland
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Name: Syndie
Location: United States
Birthday: 9/24/1984
Interests: Drawing, writing, and making music
Expertise: hiding
Occupation: Customer service/support
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
1/27/2004
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| Hey, look who's back on xanga!!! Me. Why? Because I've just realized that eveyone and their MOM's really do have a Myspace. Mine has been reading everything I write on their, so I'm hoping she doesn't find this. You think she's have learned after reading my journal in high school and losing my trust. She finally gained some of it back and she takes advantage of it once again. It fucking hurts. The one person you should be able to trust and she goes and spies on you. If she finds this one too, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I don't need parental supervision anymore. I'm fucking 21 years old. Leave me alone and let me live my own life already. Oh, and then she tells me that my sister showed her my site and my sister told me i was writing bad things in their, so I send my sister a nasty message to which she replies and informs me that she wasn't the one that told my mom about my myspace. My mom was the one who found it herself and has been spying on both of us. Only my sister doesn't ever write anything in her blog. So as you can imagine, I'm pissed. But it's not a pissed where I want to kill her. I'm pissed cause I don't feel I can ever forgive her for betraying me a second time. | | |
| I've got a date!!!!!! Well kinda. Her name is Tisha and she lives....shit I forget where she lives but it's up by Dominican somewhere. I met her on Myspace cause I was kinda lonely and placed an add and she seemed genuinely nice so I've been talking with her and we were supposed to meet at "the Hip" Today, but she's not sure she can make it. But if she can't, we'll probably get together this weekend. She's kinda shy, but I'm gonna drag the wild child out of her, Even if that means I have to sing the Iggy Pop song "Real Wild Child". Iggy Pop kicks ass. I think Tisha and I might just hit it off.
Oh, and I'm gonna go camping with Gurrty and friends next month. I'm kinda rethinking it because we're going to see her boyfriend and I haven't exactly found closure yet. I'm getting though. Still a little jealous, but if this Tisha girl is as great as she seems, I'll have nothing to be jealous of. Hell, if she's going to be with her boyfriend all weekend, then I'll just bring Tisha with me. That's fair right? Besides, I'm driving seperately anyway. It's not like I'm inviting someone on a trip that isn't my trip to invite someone on, right? We'll probably have a seperate tent too. We'll just be in the same area at the same time for the same reason. Wow, I need closure.
Oooh, Tish just messaged me and she can meet me at the hip today. Yay. I gotta go eat now though and I'll let you guys know how it went later. | | |
| Why am I such a coward that I can't say how I feel? WHY????? Someone please just shoot me. Better yet, just shoot the source of my pain, because I'd rather be happy again than dead. How long will that take? | | |
| So, I've been talking to Gurrty here and there. We're still friends. I'm trying to get over it, but I can't. I really love her. I just wish I was a better girlfriend so she'd feel as strong about me as I do about her. God, I wish I haddent fallen in love with her cause I don't know how to get over it. I never felt so lonely. I never needed anyone until her. I don't think I'll ever find anyone else. I really don't. I'm not really the girlfriend type. Even Eric wouldn't date me again. I don't even know where to go to meet new people anyway. I work all the time and have no one to go places with. Occassionally I'll go play skeeball with Eric or something, but no one's going to think, "Hey, that girls cute. I think I'll take the time to get to know her," if they see me with a guy. They probably think he's my boyfriend. I don't know. I really need to get our more. I've got nowhere to go and no one to go with.
Well, I think I'm going to go take a drive up to Best Buy and look at camaras and computer software. I'm thinking about taking up photography. I guess I'll need some equipment. Anyway, I'm going to go find somewhere else to sit and think about how empty my life is. My life has always been empty. It's just that I never noticed it before I had someone to fill that void. My abbandonment issues really piss me off.
So, how was everyone's 4/20? I was thinking about getting stoned, but I had no one to join me, so I stayed home and slept. Fun, right?
Oh, my sisters wedding shower is tomorrow. I hope she gets what she wanted. Nothing is marked off on the regestry. But I think everyone got her better versions of what she registered for cause she registered for the cheapest things at the store. Some of the stuff I couldn't even find. Oh well.
Ooh. I got my first credit card. It's a target card. I'm excited. I can finally build some credit so that I can take out a loan to buy a townhouse or a condo or something when I can afford to pay bills.
Okay. TTYL. Bye. | | |
| You guys are the greatest. Seriously. I was really lucky to have had the chance to have met you all. That's all I have to say. Peace out and may your God be with you. | | |
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